I now confront the hardest thing I have ever done. I thought I had. I thought I was every day. I could not imagine anything harder.

Now I must see who I let myself become. I cannot hide anymore. I will never be okay if I cannot do this.

I cannot do it.

How can I face myself when I am nothing? How can I stare into that void? I already know what I will find. I will find nothing. I cannot face the emptiness. Every time I see even a hint of the edge I break. How can I possibly dive in? How could I ever find my way back out?