Being too
busy to think happens when you have a desk full of
paperwork and
robotic routines that need to be followed where there is no hope for
creative exploration. Then of course, i get a pile of
email stacking up, 3 lovely women concurrently
ICQing me, and a request from
MSN messenger service to start
NetMeeting to chat with a
comrade at arms.
This may be good if you're still trying to forget someone, but then, it's also hard to move forward when the invisible
tentacles of
online life keep you strapped
in bondage to
the machine. YAY, i don't want to think right now, i want to keep on my focus developing an
online community site. I never knew there was so much involved, but it's exciting to not live within creatively induced turmoil
Of course, as I'm not thinking, i forget to eat, oh the kettle is still on the stove!!! damnit, the
telephone rings but i don't answer it as it makes
multi-tasking more difficult. I can't find my soul in this mess of a life, so i let old
disco by D Train play extended
in the background, I can't find my
MS Office 2000 disc under the laundry towering in my closet. let alone my keys to the office downtown where i should/could have been volunteering my time.
All that, then i realize
i haven't even posted anything of substance on
E2 for over a month.
FUQ! ok so if this counts as thinking, it ends right about now as i get back to work on
project development plans and monthly sales
guesstimates.
I still love you all, even the
copyright freaks and goons, i hope you get better soon. I still think about you Danielle, though i'm deep now painting a new shell. Stress is all relative to what it seems,
I dont pretend to understand what anything in this world means. Touch my heart and
shock me with a start, Stuck sorting phases and pieces of me taken apart, I'm still alive aiming my everything in this life as a carefully centered shot of an invisible dart.