I need the extra money. My regular isn't enough. I need something else. This was the best I could get.
It seems alright so far. One thing I don't like is the negativity. If it's not from the players, it's from the parents. It feels like everyone's attacking me. I need the money but I need my sanity too.
The other guys tell me they ignore it. They're used to it. But I feel like I owe the players an explantion. I try my best. Some of them are my friends. Or were.
Every time that money gets deposited, I feel like celebrating. Wish it weren't so. Am I waiting for something or someone to rescue me? I don't try to plan out my future. That energy I don't have. Yet I plod along.