I know that when I write
positive touchy-feely "my life is
beautiful" kind of day-log writeups I tend to get upvoted, and when I write about what a
pisser my day has been I tend to get
none.
But who fucking cares.
Tonight just sucks.
It started out
great -- a nice BBQ with lots of
friends, watched the game,
Lakers won. And then they all left and the
crap began.
Of course it is all
insignificant. But it does not matter what the petty
issue is ... its the underlying
meaning and feelings that eat away at my brain. Its the way
I feel insignificant,
I feel under
attack,
I feel like I need to
change my life around so I won't have to feel this way anymore.
At least not because of
him.